Tuesday, January 31, 2006

black snowmen


I just want to "lighten" things up a bit here. So, in keeping with the theme I wore black, and all the surroundings are black...but my snowmans head is being a rebel!!!!!lol. See what your missing! the other side is powerful Luke...but the life of a TRUE JEDI.....is in Colorado!!!lol
I am sorry to take time away from all the readings pertaining to 'bush bashing' and 'political incorrectness'. Ben. I will try to "leave those alone" as well. (only trying to add a little light and inspiration here)

Monday, January 30, 2006

Equipment Issue


I'm really pleased with this Microsoft Streets & Trips. I would recommend it to any frequent traveler. I got to Peach County DFCS in this fog this morning without turning around or knowing a single thing about where I actually was.

If there isn't any software like this for the Mac, I may have to keep using the PC.

It's not a wonder that this is happening. I was never repaid for any of the field gear I bought, either. The article sounds like no one wants to let the servicemen know about a program that will pay them back for protecting themselves. They didn't want to spend the money protecting American soldiers before they went, and they aren't too happy about doing it now either. Do they not deserve it?

Do our soldiers not deserve to have good intelligence, proper training, and custom equipment? I would have been scared shitless to go to war with my Army unit due to the status of our mechanical equipment. The Pentagon, Congress, and the G-dub need to wake up and bury the hooker.

It's one thing to make a date, but it's something totally different to show up looking like an asshole because you weren't prepared. And it really sucks when it costs human lives in addition to your reputation.

The audiobook I'm on, The World is Flat, is talking about outsourcing a crapload of work to India and other places. Not just tech support, but restaurant reservations, executive assistance, baggage claims, software engineering, and even your income taxes. Do you think the grunt work of Congress could/should be outsourced as well? I think it just might. If an Indian graduate student can produce enough research to justify a multimillion-dollar deal for a businessman, I'm sure they can write American law. It's probably just a matter of time before we realize we have to consolidate our administrative tasks in order to save money to pay for the war.

Sunday, January 29, 2006

He Acabado el Cuerpo de Secretos

I'm going to leave those preceding three posts alone.

It's 12:25 on a Sunday morning (we just finished a Saturday night) and I finally closed Body of Secrets without a bookmark in it. The last chapter, "Brain," was only 36 pages, but it turned out to be one of the longest. "Brain" was about the computer systems used by the NSA. The history of computers at the agency dates back to the very first calculating systems. They provided a lot of the motivation for computing research.

I learned that Semour Cray (creator of the famous Cray computer) lived in Wisconsin for a long time, then moved to Colorado Springs. He died in Colorado in 1996 as a result of an automobile accident in 1995. His ashes are spread about the mountains there. I moved to Colorado Springs two years after he died. So it's like, you know, we're related or something.

There wasn't any more about George H.W. Bush and industrial espionage. There was, however, some information about domestic spying and its legalities. I will quote the book now since this stuff is hot in the news:

Among the reforms to come out of the Church Committee investigation was the creation of the Foreign Intelligence Surveillance Act (FISA), which for the first time outlined what NSA was and was not permitted to do. The new statute outlawed wholesale, warrantless acquisition of raw telegrams such as had been provided under Shamrock. It also outlawed the arbitrary compilation of watch lists containing the names of Americans. Under FISA, a secret federal court was set up, the Foreign Intelligence Surveillance Court. In order for NSA to target an American citizen or a permanent resident alien - a 'green card' holder - within the United States, a secret warrant must be obtained from the court. To get the warrant, NSA officials must show that the person they wish to target is either an agent of a foreign power or involved in espionage or terrorism. (p. 440)

The book goes on to say that this only covers people inside the United States. "To target Americans outside the country, all that is needed is the approval of the U.S. Attorney General" (p. 441).

I haven't bothered to read much about the spying that the president is being hammered about, but I guess those would be some guidelines to start with.

In other news, we looked at four houses today. We will keep only one in mind. Also, I've changed the reading list again, but only subtly. The book currently being read is underlined, bolded, and in a slightly larger font. I will keep crossing out the listings of books I've read. Like that one at the top.

The title of this post was translated using Google Language Tools.

Saturday, January 28, 2006

me

you wonder what i have streaming through my body for blood..musically? What could possibly describe this freak...you ask? This is the best i could do for you tonight!..lol
matchbox 20: unwell

All day Staring at the ceiling Making friends with shadows on my wall All night Hearing voices telling me That I should get some sleep Because tomorrow might be good for something Hold on I'm feeling like I'm headed for a Breakdown I don't know why I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell I know, right now you can't tell But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see A different side of me I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired I know, right now you don't care But soon enough you're gonna think of me And how I used to be Me Talking to myself in public Dodging glances on the train I know I know they've all been talking 'bout me I can hear them whisper And it makes me think there must be something wrong With me Out of all the hours thinking Somehow I've lost my mind I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell I know, right now you can't tell But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see A different side of me I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired I know right now you don't care But soon enough you're gonna think of me And how I used to be I been talking in my sleep Pretty soon they'll come to get me Yeah, they're taking me away I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell I know, right now you can't tell But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see A different side of me I'm not crazy I'm just a little impaired I know, right now you don't care But soon enough you're gonna think of me And how I used to be Hey, how I used to be How I used to be, yeah Well I'm just a little unwell How I used to be How I used to be

more

OK, so i have yet another musical rendition to my 'life theory'. No, i am not gay, i just see life in a musical and theatrical version that most people dont.

Artist: Staind Lyrics Song:
So Far Away Lyrics This is my life Its not what it was before All these feelings I’ve shared And these are my dreams That I’d never lived before Somebody shake me Cause I, I must be sleeping (chorus) Now that we're here, It's so far away All the struggle we thought was in vain All the mistakes, One life contained They all finally start to go away Now that we're here its so far away And I feel like I can face the day I can forgive and I’m not ashamed to be the person that I am today These are my words That I’ve never said before I think I’m doing ok And this is the smile That I’ve never shown before Somebody shake me Cause I, I must be sleeping (chorus) I'm so afraid of waking Please don't shake me Afraid of waking Please don't shake me (chorus)

sorry, you just have to get the music and listen for yourself. It is very powerful and can/will give a message that only you can desipher.

going skiing

Just wanted to thank Ben for correcting my post and being a good moderator of this kick ass blog site! I really thought it was goofy at first...but i have been drawn over to the 'Ben side'...lol. I have a bunch of diffrent blogs..but this one is actually meaningful. I admire Bens dedication and fortituide(sp).Good shit bro, i dig it! Me and Sarah both think you are insane though, trying to read that many books in a given time frame is just dumb...sorry. (and she is an english teacher)
ok, so on a diffrent subject...i am going skiing tommoro. I am going with my school (CSU), but i am taking my buddy matt with me. There is a no 'drinking' policy...but i think that will have to be altered drastically!!! I will take pictures and post them soon.
I dont know why, but tonight i have been very moved with the power of music and the feelings in which it can inspire. While reading Bens blog I have had two songs tugging at my 'soul strings'.
Oleander: (lyrics follow)

I can’t take this anymore and i’m almost pretty sure i’ve been here before i can’t take this any longer i won’t heal until i’m stronger strong enough to not be afraid of what anybody thinks of what anybody says about the way about the way i am so i’ll wait until the day when those feelings fade away then i’ll make my break i can’t take this any more and i’m almost pretty sure i’ve been here before i can’t take this any longer i won’t heal until i’m stronger strong enough to not be afraid so i leave it up to you yeah i leave it in your hands respect your wishes and your demands but if it was up to me honey we’d already be back at home and living out our dreams living out everbody and everything i’ve known never taught me how to stand up on my own had to learn it from the one who let me go now i walk alone, yeah i walk alone, yeah living blissfully i guess you had to step away to make me want to be a bigger man, a bigger man than that i need you by my side as i take it all in stride I put away, i put away my pride oh i leave it up to you yeah i leave it in your hands respect your wishes and your demands but if it was up to me honey we’d already be back at home and living out….everbody and everything i’ve known never taught me how to stand up on my own had to learn it from the one who let me go now i walk alone yeah I walk alone, yeah i walk alone i walk alone i walk alone i walk alone i walk, oh yeah

whata kick ass song!

guess ya have to hear it to appreciate it. this program is not cut-n-paste friendly either...sorry

I think i like this jam because it has so many diffrent avenues of meaning. Many people and many things have 'let us go' over the years....depending on how you look at life. It is all about interpretation and what we get out of it all...made me think of this site (and ben). also makes me think of my first really kisk ass car...my eclipse...and my new car, my 300z, and how ironic life ,me, and these cars are. Life is weird....fuck i DIG IT!

Friday, January 27, 2006

Anarchism is Here

Bush Sees No Need for Law to Approve Eavesdropping - New York Times

"The president added that if the effort to write a new law 'is likely to expose the nature of the program, I'll resist it.'"

I'm sorry, but as soon as this shit hit the fan, the nature of the program was exposed, you idiot. Your attepmts to justify this to the people of the United States clearly outlined it for the enemy and those whom you're really spying on, so forget it. We might as well draft some legislature and follow the fucking rules. There.

Does Osama not know we're spying on him just because there's no law that "exposes the nature of the program?"

There have been hints in the current chapter (Muscle) that George H.W. Bush's administration did a bit of industrial espionage, too. More on that later.

Thursday, January 26, 2006

Ordinary Again

I don't know what to say today. I'm angry at a few people I work with, but that's nothing. I'm at home now.

I finished The Time Machine, but I think I read it so fast I can't tell what made the story so significant. The language wasn't really strong enough to make an impression, but that's probably due to the age of the writing. The copy I have was printed in 1980, but doesn't give a copyright to the text. It has to be from the 1940s or 1950s. Anyway, it's a creative story about time travel, but doesn't mention the possible consequences of changing the past or future via this method. I won't go into it either. Now to the movie.

Tell Justin I'm sorry for spilling his coffee and correcting his post.

I've come to a decision about a major part of my life, and I'm going to take the steps necessary to make those changes. Three of my machines are going into the garage, and the last one is coming off the network when we get more storage. Remember that stuff about simplification I mentioned earlier? This is a continuation.

Beth still says I should see a counselor.

I might could make do with a good friend.

Ben is a comedian!

As I was surfing the always-interesting blog of Ben's today, I got to the part about golfing and wanting to reward the ball for not sinking in the water.....I almost pissed myself laughing!!!! I had just taken a rather large drink of my coffee (a new hobby i recently took up) and when I read that caption promptly blew every 'good to the last drop' all over my keyboard and unsuspecting dog Ginger. Ben taught me a new vocabulary word a few years ago, personify, and he has always made me laugh with the extent to which he literally uses it on a daily basis.

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Slight Change

I've changed my mind about the checkmark next to each book as I read this year. I have replaced this method with a simple line-through of the entry upon completion.

I feel really bad about not having finished a book yet this year (although I have finished three audiobooks so far) so tonight I picked up The Time Machine and expect to finish it before bed. I'm on schedule to finish Body of Secrets by Saturday. Not quite up to the month's five, but being done with this 613-page monster (I'm not reading the appendices or footnotes, which add another 100 pages) will be a feat. I actually started reading the book in the Spring of 2004.

In other news, there is none. I've driven nearly 500 miles since yesterday morning, and I listened to Bob Dole's book in its entirety just today. I did have my first therapy session of the year this afternoon, though, and I think it did some good. I still don't have a proper pair of shoes, and we did take a cart, but golfing today really brought my spirits up and helped me to relax. Listening to the breeze is a form of meditation in my opinion, and meditating helps the concentration level whilst swinging. I only lost four balls in the woods, including the one I skipped across a water hazard. I wanted to reward the ball for its courage and aqua-defiance, but I wasn't going to risk an alligator attack in order to do so.

The course today was very mushy and unkept. The tenant said the place was built in the 1930s, which is probably the last time someone did some major cleaning in the wooded areas. Filthy course. I'm sure my score would have been really bad, and not just because of my short game. At least three of the greens had some variant of leprosy. Other greens were pristine, but a few actually looked worse than the preceding sand trap. They putted as well, too.

All in all, though, I had fun today. I believe I'll have a chance to go several more times this year, especially during the summer. I would like to say I'll go, and maybe I just will.

Saturday, January 21, 2006

Vietnam Kickoff

I've got something to share tonight. I'm at a part in my current book that I have wondered about for some time. I have been meaning to research the origin of the Vietnam conflict – I wanted to know how we got involved and what we wanted to get done over there. Part of my line of questions was answered this evening as I was reading. I don't care how long this gets or whether I violate copyrights; I want people to read this.

I might need to establish that Robert S. McNamara was the Secretary of Defense from 1961 to 1968, under Presidents Kennedy and Johnson.

Just before the U.S. got involved in the Vietnam bloodbath, we were spying on them, according to the book I'm reading. Apparently we had a destroyer (the USS Maddox) with a listening device on it in the Gulf of Tonkin that intercepted messages transmitted by the Vietnamese. They were chased away on August 2, 1964 by PT boats armed with torpedoes. They were fired upon at that time, but the Maddox was too fast for the chasers.

On August 4, “...an analyst at NSA received intercepts indicating that another attack on U.S. destroyers in the Gulf of Tonkin was imminent.” This message was sent to the Maddox. Later, there were “...reports of automatic weapons fire, torpedo attacks, and other hostile action” from three unidentified vessels. It was dark. “'Freak radar echoes,' McNamara was told, were misinterpreted by 'young fellows' manning the sonar, who are apt to say any noise is a torpedo.'” I could understand that. One sees what he wants to see, like Percival Lowell who “saw” canals on Mars and swore they were artificial, built by the inhabitants of the planet. His telescope was shitty. Back to the point: they thought they heard torpedoes. They really didn't. From page 299:

Nevertheless, regardless of the doubts raised by talk of 'radar ghosts' and 'nervousness,' in testimony before Congress McNamara spoke of 'unequivocal proof' of the new attack. That 'unequivocal proof' consisted of the highly secret NSA intercept reports sent to the Maddox on August 4 as a warning. Based largely on McNamara's claims of certainty, both houses of Congress passed the Tonkin Gulf Resolution, thus plunging the United States officially into the open-ended quagmire known as the Vietnam War.

But it turned out that that 'unequivocal proof' was the result of a major blunder by NSA, and the 'hard evidence' on which many people based their votes for the war never really existed. Years later Louis Tordella quietly admitted that the intercepts NSA used as the basis for its August 4 warning messages to the Maddox actually referred to the first attack, on August 2. There never were any intercepts indicating an impending second attack on August 4. The phony NSA warning led to McNamara's convincing testimony, which then led to the congressional vote authorizing the Vietnam War.

'What in effect happened,' said Ray S. Cline, who was CIA's deputy director for intelligence at the time, 'is that somebody from the Pentagon, I suppose it was McNamara, had taken over raw Sigint and [had] shown the President what they thought was evidence of a second attack on a [U.S.] naval vessel. And it was just what Johnson was looking for.' Cline added, 'Everybody was demanding the Sigint; they wanted it quick, they didn't want anybody to take any time to analyze it.' Finally , he said, 'I became very sure that that attack [on August 4] did not take place.'


According to this text, this is how and why we got involved in Vietnam. Does it sound vaguely familiar to anything related to the current situation and how we got there? After reading what they tried to get on in Cuba (mentioned in this post), I'm starting to believe that at any given time, at least one person in the President's cabinet is a crook, and the rest are full of shit.

It looks like every war is started by hatred. A hatred of some culture or belief brews in someone with power until that person finds a good reason to act upon it, even if they have to make shit up.

I take that back. Some wars have been sparked on greed. In that case, more garbage is made up and we all (soldiers, I mean, not politicians or their kids) go to fight for something, whatever it happens to be.

Sorry, I don't know where I was going with that. More from pages 299-300:

“A quarter of a century earlier, confusion in Washington over Sigint warning messages resulted in calm at Pearl Harbor when there should have been action. Now, confusion over Sigint warning messages in Washington led to action in the Gulf of Tonkin when there should have been calm. In both cases a long, difficult pass was successfully intercepted, only for the players in Washington to fumble a few feet from the goal line.


I'm only going off what this book says. Feel free to comment if you know more or can provide some context. This book is fairly narrow-minded since it only covers every event from the NSA perspective. The politics and history behind the Vietnam conflict are not discussed.

All is Well

I survived the training yesterday. I didn't leave any questions unanswered. All went well, and I found training to be a bit easier than I originally thought it would be. I don't have a very loud voice, so I will always hate large rooms, but yesterday, my first time, was thankfully in a small room with just a few people.

After I got all the old ladies logged into the workstations and into GroupWise (it actually took 45 minutes) class got started and I just flipped through the manual and told them all about what they can do with GroupWise 6.5 and how to do it. If you really want to know my opinion about the program, you can shove GroupWise right up your ass. I'll take Outlook/Exchange over Novell's mail system any day. I'm probably just being stubborn.

Friday, January 20, 2006

Reminiscing

Remember when...

...President Bush said he trusted the people more than the government to do what is right?

...a president was impeached for being a little sloppy and not making someone wear a bib?

...the Chicago Cubs were in the World Series? Yeah, me either.

...Texas was were it should have been? Part of Mexico.

...people supported the troops by making sacrifices because they knew that war affected all of us? When did a car magnet made in China begin to mean that you were patriotic?

...you could look for porn on Google and not worry about the feds coming after you?

...Ben's forehead was smaller?

...I talked about being fat, it was with a "pH?"

...The Greatest American Hero kept us safe?

Be Gentle, Please

I'm surprised that I am not nervous. It's my first time teaching a class today, and it happens to be on GroupWise 6.5, a program I'm comfortable with. It is also in front of only ten people at once, and so far my equipment is working. I do have to perform twice, like two church services, to get everyone covered.

I'll be here all day. Wish me luck!

Thursday, January 19, 2006

Okay, Okay. I Get It.


I took this today. The guy parked right next to me.

For years I had the same sort of opinion. Then I joined the Army, got the hell out of small-town South Georgia and met very interesting people, some of whom changed my entire perspective on life and the world. Scott was the first.

I think I met Scott just a few days after I was assigned to 1/68 Armor at Fort Carson, CO in August 1998. He was crawling out from under a HMMWV (Humvee) and seemed to be working hard. He always did. Scott inspired me to always do the right thing and to do my best at most everything.

Then there was Dave, who not by many accounts inspired people, always gave me a positive outlook on my career. He was one of the biggest reasons I had looked so hard into Warrant Officer Candidate School. He was also a huge proponent of going to college.

I learned from Jeff that no matter how bad your life gets, you can always find something to enjoy. He loved Big Head Todd and the Monsters, and running.

Mike taught me that my tolerance for alcohol was all in my head.

Justin never lost his temper (around me, anyway). He always seemed to have control over his emotions, if it wasn't the beer. Justin showed me that not only can I think about things to build, I can build the things I think about. I owe him so much.

Beth still teaches me every day how to be patient, how to be myself, and how to love. She's also going to let me teach myself woodworking next month! Every day grows more and more doubt in my heart that I could ever live without her.

Had I not joined the Army with the intent of getting my life started, my life probably wouldn't have gotten started. I think that getting out a bit was good for me. Not that "go for a ride and come home later" kind of out, but that "several years in other states" kind of adventure. I'd very much like to get out more often, and meet so many new people who inadvertently shape my life. If I don't, I'll just end up on my front porch chewing tobacco and screaming "go home!!" to those damn yankees.

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Whatever.

So I failed at one resolution - so what? I haven't blogged every day this year anymore, and I'm not sorry.

Truth is, I made a conscious effort to stay away from my computers over the weekend, watch some television (well, not really television - movies on DVD and Showtime), and generally get a grip on my life. It was good. I ate steak, chicken, and bratwurst from the grill, spent time with my parents, and got to know my wife again for a little bit. I'm going to try that more often.

Nevertheless, I'm still going to devote time here; I'm just not going to make it imperative that I blog every day. That would be silly. I will still try to read those 5+ books per month*. I owe it to Beth to read all those I bought.

I do think I'll get a Mac after I find out just how compatible it will be with some Windows-based software. I don't want to have to live without my Streets & Trips 2006. I hate paper maps anymore.

And I still want a motorcycle. I may have decided on the Suzuki SV1000. We're still buying a house first.

Speaking of buying a house, we're likely going to buy in the next two months. Wish us luck.

*I'm going for the average. I know I won't finish five books in January.

Saturday, January 14, 2006

More to Read

I believe I've finished listing the 2006 reading cue on the sidebar. Today I added the paperbacks I've built up or saved, and it looks like I'm really in for it. I just counted and there are around 63 books on for this year. That's rough - over 5 books a month. I'd better get to it. Whenever I finish a book, there will appear a checkmark beside the title in the list.

Given what Justin had to say about my attitude, I think some good time reading could really help me relax. I always liked getting hooked on a story and understanding the characters in it. They're much better than television. Books can be much more vivid and in-depth than anything on the telly, but anything that could help me get away from myself is welcome.

We watched Wedding Crashers last night. While it was pretty funny, I probably won't watch it again. Anyone care to borrow it?

Ben's an idiot, but so am I

ok, so you have all gotten to listen to Ben rant on and on about his life, now lets talk shop about a really messed up dude who is living the good life. (not Bill Gates) Me. I have lived a life that some view as wreckless and other see as devine. The one true variable is that it is always fun! Ben and I have had many good times together, and traveled many of the same roads (ironically), the main diffrence is in perception. This may explain why we are such good friends and even why we are posting blogs on this site together. At the same time, however, we are so very diffrent in character. Ben is one of the most interesting people/persons i have ever met in my entire life...and that is saying ALOT! I come from a line of bi-polar/MPD blood and to think i am immune would be ludicrice. Thusfar I have been accepted in society as a good person with excentric values...I can deal with that. The truth of the matter is that i am a crazy man parading around in life as a stereotypical white male with a long goatee, unusually high tollorance to alcahole and opinions about life that actually make sense, but scare people too much to be viewed as reality at this point. Thats ok, I know how Mozart felt. (no, shut up, i am not comparing myself to a freak who was only later recognized because of his anticks!)
I will not ramble on about the everyday observations that create obsticles or adventures as so seen in this thread, rather i will make a point. My friend Ben and I come from a very unique blend of German blood that is both inspiring and detromental.
Blogs for Ben, Beer for me, that makes a nice headline. It does not take a scientist long to fiqure out that we are both manic in several versions of the word. Most artist's are. We are special because we have learned to deal with life and most of the speed bumps in strange and diffrent ways that have masked our symptoms for many many years! You could say that we...evolved.
I am a man who has accepted what life has, and will, throw my way.....everyday. It is all about proportioning. Poker has taught me the best lessons ever when it comes to dealing with life. Sometimes you get a great hand but you need to keep a straight face and take it in stride, and other times you just gotta bluff your way through it.....but with the same face. It all works out the same in the end.
YOU....MAKE YOUR OWN HAPPINESS! Good or bad, nobody else is at the controls...only you.
Like i said, it is all about perception. take a few moments sometime and ask yourself the age old question.....for real......what would i do if i were in his/her shoes?!

Friday, January 13, 2006

Dear Anika,

Thank you for your hour this morning. I don't get many of those dedicated times with you anymore. I enjoyed playing in my office chair and dancing with you to John Mayer songs instead of reading the news. I am so proud of you for growing so fast, but please don't get in too much of a hurry. I love you and I hate that I haven't spent more time with you. I cherish the moments when you laugh and play, and especially the times when you learn something new. You'll be walking soon and learning so much more, and there will then be no stopping you from doing anything you want (within reason). I'd love for you to be a doctor, an astronaut, or a scientist, but it will be okay if you are a store clerk, too. As long as you are my daughter and I can love you, it will all be just fine.

Thursday, January 12, 2006

Please Pray for War

The prayer cards I mentioned last night are as follows:

Sunday: Pray for safety of soldiers and their families
Monday: Pray for confusion in the minds of the enemy and disharmony among their leaders
Tuesday: Pray for malfunction of enemy weapons
Wednesday: Pray for identities of insurgent forces to be revealed and brought to justice
Thursday: Pray for democratic government process to be successful
Friday: Pray for peace of Iraq
Saturday: Pray for the increase of faith of Iraqi Christians that they will stand up to procalim the Gospel of Jesus, even to the point of martyrdom

Seems a bit useless to pray for the success or failure of either side, given my global view. This looks to be a "Pray for us, not them. They're not God's people." Is that the message?

Are we not all human? Is this not just a civil war, fought on Earth? A globe only has one side.

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Praying for Specifics


I saw a stack of cards today. They were business-card-style cards and there were seven of them, one for each day of the week. They had the conservative, all-american theme and they were prayer cards. These cards reminded the holder to pray for certain things to help the war effort. While I found it ridiculous, the owner probably did not. She also had a bobble-head figure of the "Govenator," spelled just that way, too.

In other news, I'm not reading much lately, so I don't have anything to say. Steve Jobs finally unveiled the Intel-based iMac, so I might just get one this year. Maybe two. It's about $2K for the MacBook Pro and roughly $1300 for the iMac. They're expected to ship in February.

Actually, you can order one now. Oh, and Scott - this might be a good time to get a good price on the PowerBook G4.

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Better, But Only a Bit.

I still feel a bit under-the-weather, but I'm keeping up this blog resolution, even if it kills me. I'm also going to drive another hundred miles or so tomorrow to do my job.

Dinner was the only meal yesterday, and it looks as if lunch is the only meal of today. I don't feel like eating a whole lot. This wouldn't be so bad if I'd resolved to lose weight this year. Instead I'm hungry but don't find food attractive.

Just thought of something: Is this Pat Robertson's answer to me calling him a fucker? I'm really screwed now!

On a more serious note: I just passed up my annual opportunity to renew my student membership with the IEEE. I feel really bad, but I just don't get anything from it. I never did. Had I kept my focus on engineering in school, I might actually be more interested in a club of engineers. This sucks. I was really looking forward to collaborating with more people like me.

Oh, well. I can always join later.

Monday, January 09, 2006

Still Crappy

I did eat dinner tonight, but I couldn't finish it. I was starting to get really full and remembered in Band of Brothers when the soldiers had to stop feeding the people they found in the concentration camp so they wouldn't eat themselves to death.

I've still got a headache, and I paid a dollar for two Tylenol caplets.

Goodnight.

Sunday, January 08, 2006

Popeyes is No Longer on the List

Right after I took the first bite of the first of my highly-esteemed Popeye's spicy chicken strips, I tried to fart and nearly shit myself.

Tonight has not been a fun night.

I held out as long as I could, but five miles short of my destination this evening I yarked all over the side of the road. Now I'm visiting the toilet every five minutes. My stomach is in knots. If I wasn't 200 miles away from home, I'd call in sick tomorrow.

I feel like poo.

...And My Back Hurts, Too.

I've decided that I'm never going to be exactly happy. The very fact that happiness cannot be defined is one of the reasons I'm unhappy. If there was such a distinction, I would just match it and find joy.

I have never been content with anything. I am never pleased with my current state of anything. I don't live in the right house. I don't have the car I want. I never like my job for more than two months. I haven't worked for anyone I actually like for two years.

Marriage isn't what I thought it would be. Fatherhood is the same, but more fun. My formal education lacks six more years. I hated Colorado when I was there, and now I despise Georgia. I never have enough money to do what I need to do.

My mind is always in a bind (I'm not trying to rhyme; Now is not the time). My eyes tire quickly when reading, and there is never enough time for that. Too many subjects interest me and I can't get to them all. Whenever I try to simplify and drop the unimportant, I end up collecting it again and slowing down.

I can't let go of the past. I was always happier where I was than where I went after. I'm missing the Army lately, but I keep telling myself that it wasn't fun and I don't need to go back. I need to go forward to nice new things. Things that are in line with me and what I want.

I guess the Army got me comfortable with the "institution." I enjoy being on a military base or large college campus. Even high schools look interesting and alive. I love to walk around Beth's campus and imagine myself there, surrounded by people like me (well, maybe not at ABAC, but you know what I mean.) I loved college. Mainly because I didn't have to work, but every day I went to that campus I talked to someone who was interested in the same things I was. Either that person learned something from me or I from that person. I was usually the recipient of the knowledge, and I was fascinated by some of the people I met there.

Having said all that, I think I just miss school. I miss learning and talking to people who don't treat me like a geek and never listen (hence the number of comments submitted to this blog). Maybe when I move farther south to that town with the bigger college, I'll just go and sit if I can't attend. I loved visiting the Georgia State University campus.

I don't have a cool ending for this one. I'm a geek, remember?

Saturday, January 07, 2006

Paying twice for Network Access

Okay, so let me get this straight:

I pay for Internet Access. That is, I give money to a company for access to their network, through which I get all my online content.

I also pay for premium services on the Internet (i.e. Audible). I pay for the content that Audible.com provides.

Now the telephone company (BellSouth) wants to charge Audible for the data flowing over BellSouth's network from Audible? What the hell is that for?

It costs a network administrator no more time to administer his network whether e-mail is flowing over it, or video from Google.

I will cancel my telephone service with BellSouth shortly due to their being assholes.

Friday, January 06, 2006

Pat Robertson is a Fucker

Pat Robertson: Sharon's stroke is God's wrath - U.S. Life - MSNBC.com

And Pat's stroke will be my wrath.

Scott mentioned this article yesterday.

Isn't it all God's land, anyway? So why is it so hard to buy a fucking house now? Shouldn't God have given it to me?

Does my neighbor have to mow my lawn, because dividing God's land is not in Pat Robertson's agenda? In that case, Pat needs to climb aboard his private jet, land in Tifton, knock on my neighbor's door, and demand that he manicure my landscaping. Or Pat could do it himself while I go shopping in New York, courtesy of that private jet provided by God, or God's followers. Or just Pat's followers.

Remember in August when he called for the assassination of the Venezuelan president? How is this guy not in the asylum yet?

Oh, that's right. He's rich.

Whatever. As long as Pat drinks the Kool-Aid first.

Failure

If you actually place that word in Google's search box, you get this, and this is why.

You can help this kind of thing by placing a link like this one and mentioning the words


The actual failure I wish to mention:

I switched yesterday to burning my backup copy of a movie to DVD+R at a lower speed than I burned it to the DVD-R. The burn failed, and it may just be the backup files anyway. I'll try again later.

Thursday, January 05, 2006

Business Cards

It's a good thing I live on the East Coast. If I'd waited this late in Colorado to blog, it'd be January 6 already.

I finally made a business card and printed it at home. These printer-friendly business cards have come a long way since 1995. I remember printing my first ones on a dot-matrix printer, and then putting one card on the refrigerator. I think I was marketing myself as some sort of jack-of-all-trades.

But now Avery is kickin' out a really professional product, albeit expensive. I paid just over $18 for 20 sheets of 10 cards, but the cards break away very cleanly and the stock is a very, very bright white. I'm using Avery #8871, by the way.

Now for the website. benrehberg.com isn't exactly ready for business. Neither is techpickle.org. There are, however, some pictures up in anikajade.com's photo album, but even parts of that are broken. All in good time.

Bad Burn

We didn't get to watch part 9 last night. My "backup copy" turned out to have not burned correctly, or the Xbox has a bit of trouble reading the disc. If I fix it, I'll let you know.

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

Success

So far I have made it! Every day this year I've posted at least once (thanks to retro-posting, I made it New Year's Day just in time)!

I'm reading this book right now and it is very hard to get through. It is very long, and has quite a bit of information I don't find relevant to the topic. Bamford is long-winded, probably to hide the fact that the NSA has a relatively short history. Maybe he should write an appendage after Bush leaves office. Then we may just find out what they were going on with the Iraq idea.

Did you know that (according to this book) Eisenhower's Joint Chiefs devised several plans to gain support for going to war with Cuba? Let me quote:

One idea seriously considered involved the launch of John Glenn, the first American to orbit the earth. On February 20, 1962, Glenn was to lift off from Cape Canaveral, Florida, on his historic journey. The flight was to carry the banner of America's virtues of truth, freedom, and democracy into orbit high over the planet. But Lemnitzer and his Chiefs had a different idea. They proposed to Lansdale that, should the rocket explode and kill Glenn, 'the objective is to provide irrevocable proof that . . . the fault lies with the Communists et al Cuba [sic].' This would be accomplished, Lemnitzer continued, 'by manufacturing various pieces of evidence which would prove electronic interference on the part of the Cubans' Thus, as NASA prepared to send the first American into space, the Joint Chiefs of Staff were preparing to use John Glenn's possible death as a pretext to launch a war. (p. 84)


Isn't that crazy?

It actually sounds like something that may be heard in ten or twenty years about Iraq.

Maybe I'll get to the part about them listening to us because Gee-Dub wants to hear all my dirty stories, how I work from home occasionally and whether I make it on my own.

You're right. None of those things have anything to do with him or his business. Terrorists will be just that until they change their minds about their career choices.

I have to go watch Band of Brothers, parts 8 and 9 now. Goodnight.

Sony Stinks, and So Does That Magazine

SmartComputing omitted a large piece of information.

The Tech News section of SmartComputing's February 2006 issue has an article titled "Sony Offers Free Online VoIP Service." That part got me all turned on. It talked all about how one can route calls to mobile phones, landlines, and "other video or audio conferencing systems." They said that Sony got with GlowPoint to help facilitate a consumer-oriented rollout of "Sony's online IVE (Instant Video Everywhere) service, providing free, unlimited VoIP service worldwide."

Well wasn't that nice of Sony to provide free unlimited calling! Then I looked. After downloading the software (< 15MB) in an attempt to sign up, I discover that it's just like Skype. Free are the computer-to-computer voice and video calls, but you have to pay to make calls to a telephone number. First the rootkit, and now this. I favor Sony's electronics, but not their software practices. They're really starting to suck.

So it's free to sign up and chat with other users via computer/webcam.

Then it's $9.99/mo for the ability to call real telephones.

And it's $19.99/mo to have some sort of videoconferencing capabilities.

Anyway, the article never mentioned anything about having to pay for any part of the service. That was their oversight. Shame on them.

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

GroupWise is Hell

No it's not. I'm just bored with it already. I have to give a class on Novell GroupWise, and I really don't feel like it. That's all.

In other news, I was having problems posting last night, and I'm posting this really just to test it. Also, I was my own 2000th hit last night.

I know I talk about this a lot, but I really wish I could be opinionated about something that may hold the interest of more than five people.

Monday, January 02, 2006

Linux and DHCP

"The price one pays for pursuing any profession or calling is an intimate knowledge of its ugly side." - James Baldwin

Dynamic Host Control Protocol, or DHCP, is what most Internet users' computers get their IP addresses from. In my house, the DHCP server runs on my Windows Server 2003, which I am preparing to upgrade to a Pentium 4 workstation so I can do some video editing.

This poses a problem: the only other DHCP server options I have are (1) on my NAT device (some people call these home routers) and (2) on my Linux box. Since I need to create reservations for my wireless clients, I must use the Linux box since the NAT doesn't have this capability. This is where it gets ugly, but not that ugly.

DHCP was easy enough to install, and it's looking to be a cinch to get started and configure. It's just not quite as simple as it is with Windows Server. All I need is in the Linux MAN pages, available on the system or more easily readable at die.net.

This is the last thing I have to do before I can take the Windows Server offline. Wish me luck.

Sunday, January 01, 2006

Technologically Deficient?

It’s 2006. I’m 27 years old and it’s time I made a name for myself; it’s time I made my own money. John Mayer does it, why can’t I?

I like to teach, and I think I should do a little of that. I think the first thing I should do is make a business card and just start handing it out. Personal Technology Consulting is what I’ll call it. That’s my profession. I’ll teach people how to use their new DVD player, play their Xbox 360, organize their life with a PDA, and e-mail anybody they want to. I’m here for those intimidated by today's technology. They’re not stupid (well, at least not all of them), they’re just afraid of the many advancements made in the past few years and haven’t caught up with it.

Let us get started, shall we?