I’ve been wanting something more lately. It’s got everything to do with me and my selfishness. I’ve been wanting to move back to Colorado and back to the life I had that was more comfortable.
I say it was more comfortable because I didn’t have to work so hard to know where I was and who I could trust. I finally had a circle of friends and then I just moved away, for what now feels like no good reason.
Reading this article this morning changed my perspective on where I should be and what I should be doing. The last line, spoken by the girl’s mother, changed my priorities today.
I now admit that Colorado isn’t the same as when we left it (it is still very beautiful, however). Our friends there have changed and we have also. Every place I go, including those places I’ve lived before, would be new to me if I moved there. They’re all the same. New faces, new environment, new accent. Whether it be Minneapolis, Atlanta, or Sacramento, it’ll be just like moving back to Colorado. There would be just as much change in our lives as it was moving back to Georgia, thinking it would somehow be just as I left it.
Don’t go thinking I love Tifton. I don’t mean to sound negative about the town, but the place is just damn uncomfortable. That’s another rant. Back to my priorities:
My daughter, Anika, is paramount. I will have the best for her, especially now when she is so young. I’m third. Second is Beth, my lovely wife, who right now needs all the support she can get while she’s in school.
My problem, however, is that I’m selfish and I’ll likely forget what’s important. I’ll want more for me and justify it by saying “I need this so we can all succeed.” I just need to remember that I have more time to get back to school later. Now it’s time for Anika and Beth to grow.
Help me remember that.
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