On Happiness

Happiness is relative. Much in life is. My dad always said "You must choose to be happy." I never knew what he meant by that, or how that could happen. I know now - and it has a lot to do with optimism. I saw a nice quote this morning, which inspired me to write this morning:

Happiness is always a by-product. It is probably a matter of temperament, and for anything I know it may be glandular. But it is not something that can be demanded from life, and if you are not happy you had better stop worrying about it and see what treasures you can pluck from your own brand of unhappiness.
- Robertson Davies

The fact that I can't be happy more often I think stems from my overwhelming desire to do and learn everything under the sun while participating heavily in the family I've built with my wife and working a full-time job to pay for it all.

Besides being busy, I love everything. And I can't decide what it is I want to do. Lately I have streamlined a bit and have left myself with only a few hobbies, none of which have much priority in my every day. I have a family, a job, and school. Anything else is lower on my list.

Whatever my case, in May I will have a choice to make, and another one in December. I want to start pushing my company and get out of the consumer market. I need some solid goals to chase so I can quit changing my mind. Maybe finishing college will bring a calm to it all.